i need to be better to be with better person.. get it ? :)

i relies.. smtimes.. people are just to naive.. they don't even have any evidence or prove or anything to trust on.. why do i say that ?? i've been through it.. well.. im handling this kind of situation right now actually.. people keep yapping bout me.. saying me this saying me that.. what is the most shocking ?? its not even real.. i mean.. 100% false.. what the ?? how to deal this kind of situation ?? well.. i did got some advise from the wise ones.. they say.. be cool.. be calm... u need to be patient about this.. hey.. !! im being cool i did calmed my self down.. but they are embarrassing me for god sake.. its my dignity they talking about.. common laa.. i tried to be cool.. but smtimes its just burst out.. hey.. im not strong enough u know.. im fragile yet i admit.. a little drop of egoness somtimes dominates me.. but its normal rite ?? hmm.. although i always thinks that.. i've been through lots of things.. but actually.. when i think more wisely.. no.. i've never been through kinds of stuff.. its just short rough road ALLAH gave to me and im already feels so pathetic.. they are still tones of unfotunated humans out there.. they are facing more troubles than me.. and they still.. non-stop apprciating their lives.. ohhh.. for examples.. people from pkistanians.. afghanistans and many more poor country.. look at their lives my dear friends.. they living in  full of pain and tears.. oh my goodness.. seeing their life like that.. gives me new spirit to be patient of anything that comes to me.. i should be more apprciatetive.. i should relies that my living.. is far more better than those poor people.. i must be tough nor strong.. its not a big deal to some of u.. but not to people so fragile like me.. from my own exprience.. i also learned.. to be with somone better.. we must be better.. to be better.. we must be with somone  better.. wow.. i made out my own quote i guess.. hehe.. big exams are coming.. i must be stable.. goshh.. sometimes i just can;t get rid of my stupid soberness.. errghh.. i always lies on the bed by myself.. think about why do humans needs to be in a war ? i mean.. u don't have to hold on to a M16 or bazooka to call it a war.. even between us.. can occurs war.. cold war.. the meanest war.. war between hearts.. between feelings.. that is the most dangerous war to me.. to avoid that,  we as humans that lives with civilisation and communities must behave.. control our anger cause there is a malay quote saying.. because of our pityfull mouth.. our whole soul gets distracted.. (kerana mulut badan binasa).. and its true about that quote.. .. i wrote this.. not to show off or what so ever.. i wrote it because i need to express my feeling and why i wrote it in english ? because im facing big exams and i need to improve my english.. sorry for my wrongs in grammar or spelling.. im just an inmature writter.. maybe someday.. i might be a professional writter.. :)